Hehthur

this is what growing up looks like. I got married last year, in August.

Now I am 14 weeks pregnant, and it's really the most amazing thing in the world

 

too old for teenager drama bullshit.

Everyone has to grow up sometime, and thank god my time happened a while ago.

my wedding day <3

haha. sweet.

:)

and i'm safe and sound in iceland. I'm really very lucky.

back to iceland tomorrow. for good this time.

wish me luck.

hey all, i'm in the process of starting my online shop again. no more hiatus!

hello kitty one of a kind jewelry
crafty couture clothing

and way more will be up soon!

check it out!


check it!

i'm never ready for christmas, when it arrives.

 

seriously, how did it get here already? the last i checked, it was still august.

by today's teens. I mean, I was looking at the "be big on buzznet" group and noticed that so many people are like "i wanna be an internet celebrity!! omgahh!"

come on people, aspire to be something more in life. aspire to be a real person, who has a real personality, who has real things to offer the world. you all have it inside of you! use the "big"ness you could acquire to be something! don't do it just to be "famous". this is the internet, after all.

i got another tattoo the other night. i'm scheduled for another one next saturday. this one represents a lot of love and devotion to a certain something/one. the picture is of awful quality, trying to take a picture of myself on my sidekick, while the tattoo is up on my breastbone, right below my bra, in the center. near my heart. dear and true to me. yup. this is my 3rd tattoo.

seems like some intense shoes to fill. I figure that an honor like that would come in handy for the people who wish to inspire or awe, or educate others. More eyes, means more freedom, and more open minds. I think that is such a fantastic opportunity. If some moment in my life can help create a whole new point of view for other people, then I would love to be able to have every opportunity to change the world, one mind at a time. I imagine that nothing would make me happier. Not everyone in the world has the wonderful opportunities to experience life in such a fantastic way as others, and they look to those who can. If all it takes, to make a smile appear on many peoples' faces, is to upload a rare moment caught on camera, then that is the life I'd love to live. I want to inspire and teach, and I'd love to have that wider chance to do that.

I've been so MIA from buzznet lately, and for that I apologize. So far, my thirst for adventure has not been quenched, and because of this, I have decided to take a step in a traveling direction, again. I'm going to be acquiring my certificate to teach English as a second language in other countries. This way, I'll be able to move around to where ever I please, take gorgeous photos, and live life as I never knew or imagined I would. Opportunity is what you make it, my friend. And I choose to make mine amazing.

I find this such an interesting question. Is colored hair, or piercings something that can qualify you as unique? I think that sometimes this can ADD to  one's uniqeness. I mean when it comes down to it, something that you have that very few people have would qualify you as unique. Can you do something special? Do you have a special talent? Are you secretly a super hero? I mean, technically anyone can have crazy photos of themself, and declare themself unique. But come on, are you really the small percent of the world that can do that? (please note sarcasm). I think people who are unique are the ones that bring something different and new to the awareness of others. People who inspire and teach, and create wisdom for others to learn from. I find these qualities unique. I think that and individual becomes just that when they seek to do something that they've never tried before. Something that isn't considered "trendy". Trendy is NOT unique.

please take a second to listen to the final-ish version by clicking
here
and taking a listen. it would mean the world to me.and for those who are wondering, yes all of those voices are mine. i am the ONLY singer in this.thaaaaanks!oh, and please, if you don't have anything nice/useful to say, don't say anything at all.and, if you'd like to download it, right click the link and click "save target as"& the song is called Source of Guidance and Inspiration. it's written about Iceland.the band is Tabukka.

myspace.com/22tab22

So I've been waiting for youtube to finish uploading a simple video that I'm going to put up here, and it's taking forever. Now, I have to give it credit, it's full quality and some 800mbs. haha. but I have been waiting for several hours..

The last couple of days have been alright. We're working hard to finish "Source of Guidance & Inspiration", and have been recording recording recording. It seems I've got some great opportunities waiting for me when I get back to the states for a while. Hot Topic wants me to model for them, and this one production company wants me to do a commercial for them. Fun fun. And I'll be getting together with a bunch of my favorite photographers and collaborating again. I can't wait for that.

There is a show at Kaffi Barinn on saturday for us. It should be a lot of fun. I leave on Monday. But while I'm really sad, at leaving Jonas and leaving Beta, Arni, and Valdi, I know I'll be back for good regardless before the next year is done. I'll be back for a short visit in April, and Jonas is coming to visit me for the entire month of January (for my bday & new years) so I'll be able to start the year off on a good foot. I've been kind of good at staying clear of drama, and immaturity that people like to spring into my life. let's hope I can keep it up. I'm almost 23, too old for that high school shit. I try so hard to stay away from it.

new video soon

to the unfinished version of the song we have been working on?


this is unfinished so please take that into consideration.

yes that is my voice!

click

and refresh if it doesn't work the first time!

So I now have my ticket to return to the states from Iceland. October 15th. I'm a bit saddened as I  have no desire to leave. The good thing is that Jonas (my boyfriend) will be coming to visit me for New Years and my birthday in January. Then I'll be heading back to Iceland in April, of course if everything works out like it's supposed to. I know I'll be coming back for a permanent visit (yes, moving here), but of course I wish that started now. I really never want to leave. I think that every person in the states should make sure that they travel to some other country at LEAST once in their life. I mean we seriously can't comprehend fully the cultures of other countries until we experience them. I have been to Japan (lived there for almost 3 years)  and now Iceland. I have every intention of trying other countries as well... but seriously you need to try other countries. You will feel like such a better human being, I can't even explain it. Just try it. I promise, it'll be one of the most rewarding experiences in your life. 

Isn't it amazing how you can have a dream, and wake up feeling like it really did happen, or is going to happen? Dreams are crazy fuckers that really can make you question your reality.

I woke up this morning after having a dream that my mother was terminally ill and going to die soon. I remember that I cried and cried in my dream, and was so scared to see her, for fear my presence would trigger the dying or something. I NOW feel completely sad, and shaken, as if I'd really dealt with this awful thing. But I haven't. Of course I've sent out an obligatory email to my family double checking that everything is alright, so I can ease back a bit.

The real-ness of our subconcious is absolutely amazing. The fact that your mind can fabricate movies in our head, and really mess with us is impressive. I think that our brains are just so completely complex and amazing. But on another view, why does our brain create the visual stimulations known as dreams?

What exactly triggers the exact visuals we get? And why do they feel like we're living these dreams when in reality it's only been a matter of seconds and the whole dream is already over. It's really so bizarre.

When I was little and had a bad dream, I was often told that the way to get rid of bad dreams was to yell at them and tell them to go away. And I would do it. I'd wake up crying from  a bad dream, get ready to go back to sleep and yell "Go away bad dream! I don't want you anymore!". It always worked of course. And I'd sleep peacefully for the rest of the night. Controlling our own dreams? Of course. That's another peak. We have a completely open range of things we can cause ourselves to dream, if we have enough control of our subconcious.

I've often wondered if our dreams come from the part of our brain that we supposedly don't use. The left side? Am I right? Regardless, it's not "being used". I wonder if it's really our brain seeing things. Cooky maybe, but I've always liked to fancy the thought that everyone has the ability to use their brain in far different ways. Are these dreams we are having interpretations of a situation yet to come, perhaps mixed with a touch of what has already happened? I'm pretty sure I remember some dreams that have come true. Maybe not in the exact way that the dream demonstrated, but the end outcome was still the same.

What do you think? How do you feel about dreams, beyond simple thoughts.

You know, every once in a while one needs to take a few moments out of their life to consider the people who surround them. And whether or not they should still be there. Seriously sometimes you'd be surprised what you're realize.  Sometimes we think people are something, but start to see the small things and remember that they do things that we don't really like. Or that suddenly, you and that person are no longer compatible as friends. I think that doing this every once in a while will keep us healthy, as we'll be able to detach ourselves from any unintentional negativity that has taken root into our lives. It's crucial to keep a positive healthy happy look on life, as the law of attraction is constantly working. No I don't mean that solely in a relationship type way. The law of attraction is very real, and by keeping yourself chipper, no matter what, you will be bringing good things your way. Your thoughts send off a frequency, and positve ones are stronger. Stop for a second and think about all the times you were upset about something. Anything. And you dwelled on it. You know how sometimes you just get hit repeatedly by bad luck, or bad things happening, no matter how little or small. Well that is the law of attraction working. Lets say you constantly fear about never finding your soulmate. Then you're sending out the thought frequency that you will never find your soulmate, therefore it will be that much more difficult for you. Why would you do that to yourself? Why not imagine finding them, and how happy you'll be when that happens. You'll be bringing that event to you, with your frequency. For those who think this is silly, try it. Over simple things. Don't expect a magical result tomorrow. But keep a positive feeling in you, and imagine the very things in life you want. Imagine that you already have them, and think of it often. Keep cheerful. I promise, these things will come to you.

How do I know? I'm living proof. I'm living the things I've been demanding from the world, that I envisioned myself having, that I KNEW would happen. And they did.

Just try.

I created an abstract about Buzznet, more or less a review. you can check it out here:
click and enjoy! for those to lazy to click the link, or in case it doesn't work, here is what it says. it's mostly about blogging and whatnot.



Blogging. Blogging encompasses such a large area of the seemingly infinite internet. People crave blogging and love the idea that people will read their stories of woe, of good times. The other side of blogging is that people love to read juicy news  and about the lives of people who they envy, or admire. Sometimes a website can encompass blogging along with video blogging, and community all in one. Buzznet seems to have done this. Although it seems deeply seeded in teenage angst music, and the scene that is commonly termed as "Emo", it holds a wide range of ways for people to communicate themselves and express their inner selves easily. Anyone can feel important for one day when an image they''ve uploaded to the site is featured as the "photo of the day". This site encourages creativity, which is rare amongst popular teen sites nowadays. They are rewarded for their creativity with praise, which will cause anyone to procure more of whatever it is that got attention. Humans crave fame, and will usually do what it takes to be heard and seen. Blogging seems to be the root of it. Why tell the world about your life, unless you want everyone to know about you, and know that you''ve somehow left an impact upon someone. Blogging gives us a sense of reaching out farther into the world and leaving our fingerprints upon a larger region. It gives us the ability to associate ourselves with other people's issues. To feel better about oneself, because we have been reading along with someone's blog who is enduring the same life issues as ourself. It takes some extra loneliness out of our lives and makes us feel closer to all the people in the world. How wonderful blogging seems to be for our world, and Buzznet has quite a hand on getting people's words out there and heard. I can only imagine that blogging could have the capability of saving people''s lives. Taking away the utter loneliness but replacing it with friends who understand and care. Who would have thought that blogging could be so useful?

so i'm just chilling here doing mostly nothing. drinking a cup of delicious hot chocolate. very yum. i'm looking forward to two very different things: going to florida to stay with my sis for a while, and spending the rest of my future with Jonas. i'll only be in the states for a limited time, as i'll be getting ready to move to Iceland. If this upsets you for rude reasons, don't bother to complain to me. But if you're genuinely sad that I'll be gone from the states, just know that I'll always welcome visitors with open arms. life is definately interesting, and fascinating. i'm pleased that life seems to have more of a straight way to go. i can see farther than a few steps ahead of myself. my road is clear. and bright. i've decided that Beta, Jonas, and myself are going to open up a fashion shop in Iceland. I have done some research and it seems that it will be VERY profitable in Iceland, what with the cost of fashions here. So I've been doing my homework, and getting more connections in the wholesale fashion world. I've come up with some good stuff, and I'm very pleased. Beta and Arni come home from their trip to Italy/London tomorrow, and I couldn't be more pleased. This coming weekend the 4 of us are going back to Talknafjordur and we will have so much fun. I really can't wait. Early October is my departure time I think from Iceland. Jonas has knee surgery on the 28th of September, and I'd hate to not be able to help take care of him afterwards. It'll be very painful to leave at all. But at least I'll be able to create a deeper, healthier bond with my sister, who is now married BTW! Ahh! And Beta and Arni are engaged too! He asked her in Italy!! She called us crying happy tears, and even he cried when telling us. Seriously the best things have happened. And to really good people to. I'm so pleased to have witnessed these things.

I'm pleased.

So I have time to sit down for a short while and write a bit in here.
I've been doing a lot of thinking. And a lot of realizing of life and
how every little step that people make, create a huge long road ahead
of them. It's rather fascinating, I think. I think I'll walk away from
this vacation with so much learned. I'm really not shocked. I've made a
new friend, one whom I think will be my best friend for the rest of my
life. This person not only is beautiful, but simple like I am. No need
for drama, no need for unnecessary stress. The only other female I've
met who I feel understands me completely. It's rather nice. I don't
have to worry about upsetting her over something that I don't know I
did, I can feel completely comfortable just being me. She doesn't judge
how I spend my day, but rather, spends it the same way I do. She's
lovely. My vacation may be coming to an end, but I feel that I'm
enjoying it more thoroughly now. I have truly amazing people in my
life, and I'm really glad for it. Even though some of my situations
while being here have been less than fantastic, it's ok. I hold no
grudges, anger, or resentment. I've just pulled myself away from them
in order to not ruin my vacation. I came to this place to relax, and
de-stress. And finally I'm doing that REALLY. I refuse to let my
vacation become what I was trying to get away from. I've got a
beautiful sleeping boy next to me. A beautiful boy who brings me
breakfast in bed (that was the first time anyone had done that!), and
who wants nothing more than to spend his life with me. Sometimes I feel
that the steps I've taken in the last 4 years were supposed to lead me
to these two wonderful people who have so quickly affected my life so
positively. We went to the geyers and the largest waterfall in Iceland,
5 of us, and it was wonderful. I'll post pictures later. It was SO
lovely. Tomorrow we are having an Iceland/American crossover dinner.
We'll be cooking dishes from both countries. Fun times. I really hope
everyone is doing well. Thank you everyone who has helped to get me to
this very moment of my life.